We Do What We Do in the Dark by Michelle Hart

Mallory sees the woman for the first time at her college gym and is immediately transfixed. As a naturally reserved person who is now reeling from the loss of her mother, Mallory finds herself compelled by the woman's assurance, and longs to know her better.

Despite the discovery that she is a professor at the college, Mallory finds herself falling into a complicated love affair with the woman, the stakes of which she never quite understands. In the years that follow, Mallory must come to terms with how the relationship shaped her, for better or worse, and learn to become a part of the world that she sacrificed for the sake of a woman she never truly knew. In this enthralling debut novel, the complexities of influence, obsession, and admiration reveal how desire and its consequences can alter the trajectory of a life.
 
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"A beautiful book so filled with sharp longing and perfectly phrased vulnerability that I read it in a reverent hush." - Torrey Peters, author of Detransition, Baby
 
"Does something exceptional....Sometimes it's erotic, sometimes it's devastating." - New York Times
 
"A gorgeous storyteller, Hart is gifted with a poet's precision, blending image and idea. Sensual and wise, this novel channels the melancholic exhilaration of dangerous love." - Tayari Jones, author of An American Marriage